May 30, 2006

What Pre-Med Experiences Should Be. (Part I)

A year ago, I was about to graduate from the University and I anxiously awaited the results of my medical school applications. I was fairly confident that I could get into medical school -- I had good grades, a great score on the MCAT and some stellar recommendations from my PI, professors and people I've volunteered with. However, one little comment had been niggling in the back of my mind. I remember having a great interview with the Dean of admissions at my med school of choice and he said "so, what sort of medical-related work have you done recently?"

Without a doubt, the Dean had found my application-Kryptonite. I stumbled a bit in answering and I managed to collect myself enough to pull up my 6 month stint volunteering at an ER (doing next to nothing,) but that was ALL THAT I HAD DONE. Truly, I considered my academic work in college to be so important in my quest to get in, that I had not given myself the chance to explore.

Med schools across the nation unanimously decided to reject me. It should not have come as a great surprise to me, but it was a blow to my (rapidly deflating) ego.

Fast forward a year. I spent a while finding various "preceptorships" in the most basic sense, shadowing two different family physicians and a group of gastroenterologists. My mother had just started working as the director of a rural community health center and I did not hesitate to ask her for some new experiences. (Regrettably, I dismissed a lot of her offers while I was in college out of pride and independence.) I learned a lot, especially from the family doctor who worked out of a small trailer at my mom's rural community center. The doc took me rounding with her in the hospital, into community-planning meetings (to expand services and make a greater impact with other organizations) and through routine scheduled appointments. I had the chance to see the most exciting, as well as the most dull work she had to do.

There were two parts to the dullness I eventually learned to eliminate. One part was that even though I was in the exam room, I was supposed to be a silent lurker. The lack of interaction made me feel disconnected, especially when I wanted to comment on something. The other part was my ignorance. I was afraid to talk and ask questions (especially if the patient was right there) about certain things going on, because I didn't want to seem super clueless.

What I learned from my preceptorships was exceptional mindfulness. Even if I couldn't ask questions when the patient was there (to avoid looking stupid and potentially embarrassing them,) I could ask about it later... and learn more on my own. I took it upon myself to learn about lab tests and the significance of the most common results. I drank in the doc's methods of history taking and patient communication -- each doctor had their own personal style driven by their particular circumstances -- but they all had a few things in common.
  • Sit down. Don't make them feel rushed.
  • Listen to the patient's concerns. Provide feedback and don't concentrate on note-taking.
  • Address their concerns and discuss your own with them (usually in an efficient manner)
  • Be comfortable.
The last one I learned on my own. My preceptors couldn't teach me this. At first, whenever they stepped out of the room and left me alone with the patient, I felt uncomfortable. Should I ask questions? What can we talk about? What is this person willing to reveal to me? Usually, they were equally curious about my circumstances. "No, I'm not a medical student, but I'm trying to get in. I am thinking about family practice or pediatrics right now." After opening up with the most inquisitive patients, I found it easy to strike up a conversation with them. As a matter of fact, I came to realize that they were already open to me.

A simple consent to allow me to sit in the room with their doctor and listen to their personal details made it all happen. The key of a doctor-patient relationship is honesty and openness. I was a part of this bond of trust because I was there, listening to confessions that they might not even make to close family members. The reason they let me in the room at all, despite being a clueless and fidgety pre-med student, was precisely because they knew I was a clueless and fidgety student. They felt that they had a great doctor.

Many times I was told how much they loved their doctor. Not everyone has this experience and a few bad examples embitter people towards the profession as a whole. All of these doctors started off knowing as little as I did. Many of them made the same mistakes as I did, concentrating on learning biological mechanisms of disease and ignoring the humanism implicit in medicine. Patients know this. They knew that in order for me to be a better person, I had to learn from great examples.

I had half a dozen great examples to learn from, each with their own lessons of personal communication to impart. I am grateful that I was rejected the first time I applied for medical school. BAM. This humbling experience allowed me to take my time and explore the personal side of medicine. These lessons will stick with me. It came easy for me to read books to be good in my academic study. Reading people, on the other hand, comes hard. Relating to people is an ongoing process requiring constant mindfulness.

It might be OK to skim a patient's chart, but it is never OK to skim a patient.

I wish I could attribute these words to someone wise, but they are just my own. Perhaps in a fit of wisdom as an attending or preceptor, training some young n00b, I might be able to pull this line off as some grand insight.

May 27, 2006

Post Structure

Just a few more notes (mostly for my sake) before this blog fully gets going.

Each entry will follow a certain theme across the span of a week. This will keep the content cycling on a regular basis in a manner that I hope will keep things interesting and fresh. The subjects that I am mainly interested in discussing are:
  • Philosophy/Ethics
    • My ruminations on life, ethical inconsiderations and neigh-un-informed politics will fall under this category. I want to cultivate of a greater sense of my psychological and spiritual self and reflect on how this affects other people.
  • Education
    • I strongly believe that our society will succeed if we emphasize two things: healthcare and education. I will strive to teach and inform on medical matters in particular (with citations as necessary) to further these two objectives. This will range from mnemonics for med students to interesting trivia that everyone should know about their biological selves.
  • Technology
    • I am fascinated with the advances of science and I like knowing what is going on. I will try to find the most quirky inventions, the nifty gadgets that have transformed our healthcare system and promising new concepts.
  • News
    • I anticipate that I will be busy studying... a lot. In lieu of my own thoughts on days when I am preoccupied, I will link you up with news articles that I think are significant points of discussion.
  • MD Life
    • Funny anecdotes of my life in medical school, my shout-outs to fellow med bloggers and other such social "pimpnetworking" will go under this category.
  • Pre-Med
    • Just in case pre-meds stumble in here looking for guidance and advice, I will stuff my thoughts, tips and tricks in here.
  • Mnemonics (added 8/3/06)
    • I'll put up a few mnemonics a week to fill in the gaps in my own knowledge. Sounds like a lot of fun... but not many medblogs are doing this for some reason.

May 24, 2006

Hello, World!

"Hello, World" is a phrase familiar to many computer programmers. One of their first lessons in coding involves the creation of a short application with one purpose -- it prints out "Hello World" -- thus announcing itself proudly as the beginning of something new.

This proclamation is relevant to this blog as well. I am a novice in coding and a novice in medicine. As time goes on, my proficiency in both will be demonstrated here, as I reflect on my daily experiences and their greater relevance to the world. After I recently discovered (much to my relief and those of my parents) that I will be a part of my state's medical school, I decided that I would document my progress so others may learn with me as well.

I hope to share my insight, my humor and my nonsense with you all.


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